Rampant Random Introspective Thoughtstreams.

Random Thoughts.
From a ambient song on the radio "In order to know your there, you need an echo (which is why we journal, photo, record, narcissm etc)."

Coinage and Static Cling
Coinage is like static cling, you can never quite get rid of it completely. A jar of it mixed is hard to guess the value of given the varience in size and value, kinda like the exact degree of shock you or others will recieve by running around in a wool sweater and nylon socks. Change counting machines have dissapeared at most banks, and the one at the grocery store earns 8.9%...more than most your investments. Banks are getting increasingly empty places with the decrease of paper money and paperwork, and people going to other places like ATMs, Grocery Stores and Post Offices to do banking/withdrawals.1

Damocles
A friend last night was mentioning that he has what he calls Damocles Syndrome, the constant reminder of mortality hanging over ones head like a sword suspended by a hair. It's a great story I'm surprised I missed. The other remarked that he has felt similar, and both have felt this from an early age. Which made me think about my own experience. I first became aware of mortality pretty young, maybe 4-6, having a pet die and my parents separate which was like a little death of sorts, then it realized it would apply to me as well someday. I was reminded again when my mother passed away from a brain tumor, which when researching into causes, is when I took a serious commitment into diet, exercise and longevity. So It's very intense but it's fleeting at times...most of my brain is timeless meta. I wish I could be more motivated consistently by time. There are definately times I am super efficent and conscious, and other times I'm completley unaware.

Another corrallary is most powerful, passionate, tyrants, leaders, people, etc all have a burning drive like this, though it takes different shapes. It usually starts out as sex, and then the drive focuses on self mortality.

NT Emotional Range
Several NT's I know have typically one hundreth the range of emotional expressiveness in common circumstances as 'normal people' do. An expression of a lip bending up or down slightly, and eyebrow a 1/8-1/4 inch is the norm. While people across the table last night at the Nova used loud exclaimations pretty much every other word every sentence. One could measure this in calories expended and find literally 100-1000 times difference ((perhaps we are just more efficent?). Language reflected similarly they either hate, or absolutely love everything mostly concretes (e.g. horse gambling, san diego). I usually only say that when I'm being overdramatic. There are very few things I can truly say I absolutely hate, or absolutely love. Perhaps because in meta land things aren't tied to concretes/xSxx stimulants with hardcoded values (e.g. fight flight, hunger etc).

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